[R] Not a Drop to Drink, by: Mindy McGinnis

Not a Drop to Drink
(Not a Drop to Drink #1)
by: Mindy McGinnis

3.5 of 5 stars

Regret was for people with nothing to defend, people who had no water.

Lynn knows every threat to her pond: drought, a snowless winter, coyotes, and, most importantly, people looking for a drink. She makes sure anyone who comes near the pond leaves thirsty, or doesn't leave at all.

Confident in her own abilities, Lynn has no use for the world beyond the nearby fields and forest. Having a life means dedicating it to survival, and the constant work of gathering wood and water. Having a pond requires the fortitude to protect it, something Mother taught her well during their quiet hours on the rooftop, rifles in hand.

But wisps of smoke on the horizon mean one thing: strangers. The mysterious footprints by the pond, nighttime threats, and gunshots make it all too clear Lynn has exactly what they want, and they won’t stop until they get it….

With evocative, spare language and incredible drama, danger, and romance, debut author Mindy McGinnis depicts one girl’s journey in a barren world not so different than our own.

Waiting on Wednesday [2]

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating. 

This week's pre-publication "can't-wait-to-read" selection is:

 Beautiful Redemption

(The Maddox Brothers #2)

by: Jamie McGuire

If a Maddox boy falls in love, he loves forever. But what if he didn't love you, first?

No-nonsense Liis Lindy is an agent of the FBI. Deciding she is married only to her job, she breaks off her engagement and transfers from Chicago to the field office in San Diego. She loves her desk. She is committed to her laptop. She dreams of promotions and shaking hands with the director after cracking an impossible case.

Special Agent in Charge Thomas Maddox is arrogant, unforgiving, and ruthless. He is tasked with putting away some of the world’s toughest criminals, and he is one of the best the Bureau has to offer. Though, as many lives as he’s saved, there is one that is beyond his reach. Younger brother Travis is faced with prison time for his involvement in a basement fire that killed dozens of college students, and the media want a conviction. Travis’s only savior is his unusual tie to the mob. In a deal that will spare his brother, Thomas has agreed to recruit Travis into the FBI.

Liis is stubborn, defiant, and yet somehow softens Thomas’s rough edges, making her the perfect agent to accompany him to the ceremony. Posing as a couple, they must travel to Travis & Abby’s beach vow renewal and give him the news, but when the pretending ends, she finds herself wondering if they were pretending at all.

In the second installment of the Maddox Brothers books, experience firsthand the mysterious world of the elusive Thomas Maddox, and how good love can be when you’re not the first, but the last.

Oh, I cannot wait anymore for this book. I want it and I want it bad! The first book was perfect and beautiful, so I do have my hopes up for this books and the next one too, of course.

Which book are you waiting for?

[R] Knocked Out by My Nunga-Nungas, by: Louise Rennison

Knocked Out by My Nunga-Nungas
(Confessions of Georgia Nicolson #3)
by: Louise Rennison

4 of 5 stars

Georgia Nicolson is now the girlfriend of the Sex God (aka Robbie), and things are wonderful. Except her loony parents are dragging her off to Och Aye land (aka Scotland), and the Sex God's band's chance at a record contract has left her something of a "pop widow."

Then up rears temptation in the form of old flame Dave the Laugh. Is Georgia about to become a shameless vixen?

Teaser Tuesday [2]

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following: grab your current read; open to a random page; share two “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page; BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!); and share the title & author, too, so that other people can add the book to their TBR lists if they like your teasers!

 Kiss Kill Vanish

by: Jessica Martinez

Valentina Cruz no longer exists.

One moment, she was wrapped in Emilio’s arms, melting into his kiss. The next, she was witnessing the unthinkable: a murder in cold blood, ordered by her father and carried out by her boyfriend. When Emilio pulled the trigger, Valentina disappeared. She made a split-second decision to shed her identity and flee her life of privilege, leaving the glittering parties and sultry nightlife of Miami far behind.

She doesn’t know how to explain to herself what she saw. All she knows now is that nothing she believed about her family, her heart, or Emilio’s love, was real.

She can change her name and deny her past, but Valentina can’t run from the truth. The lines between right and wrong, and trust and betrayal, will be blurred beyond recognition as she untangles the deceptions of the two men she once loved and races to find her own truth.

my teaser:

"Hours. They've passed. The shock has bled out of me, and now I feel empty and scraped raw. Gutless, guilty Valentina."

I know I already finished this book, but it was just yesterday. Spiacente. 

[R] Kiss Kill Vanish, by: Jessica Martinez

Kiss Kill Vanish
by: Jessica Martinez

3.5 of 5 stars

Valentina Cruz no longer exists.

One moment, she was wrapped in Emilio’s arms, melting into his kiss. The next, she was witnessing the unthinkable: a murder in cold blood, ordered by her father and carried out by her boyfriend. When Emilio pulled the trigger, Valentina disappeared. She made a split-second decision to shed her identity and flee her life of privilege, leaving the glittering parties and sultry nightlife of Miami far behind.

She doesn’t know how to explain to herself what she saw. All she knows now is that nothing she believed about her family, her heart, or Emilio’s love, was real.

She can change her name and deny her past, but Valentina can’t run from the truth. The lines between right and wrong, and trust and betrayal, will be blurred beyond recognition as she untangles the deceptions of the two men she once loved and races to find her own truth.

TTT [7]

Top Ten Tuesday is an original feature/weekly meme created at The Broke and the Bookish. Each week they will post a new Top Ten list that one of their bloggers over at The Broke and the Bookish will answer. Everyone is welcome to join! This week Top Ten is...

Top Ten 2014 Releases I Meant to Read But Didn't Get To

#10

Until the End

by: Abbi Glines

#09

Chasing Before

by: Lenore Appelhans

#08

Between the Spark and the Burn

by: Apil Genevieve Tucholke

#07

No Place to Fall

by: Jaye Robin Brown

#06

Dangerous Creatures

by: Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl

#05

Blue Lily, Lily Blue

by: Maggie Stiefvater

#04

Ruin and Rising

by: Leigh Bardugo

#03

Dreams of Gods & Monsters

by: Laini Taylor

#02

Rooms

by: Lauren Oliver

#01

Isla & the Happily Ever After

by: Stephanie Perkins

Write On Review-a-Thon 12 [Sign Up Post]

The Write On review-a-thon is a monthly event created and hosted by Brianna at The Book Vixen. This time, for the FIRST TIME ever, it’s 3 days dedicated to getting reviews done, whether you have one review to write or 30+. This edition of the review-a-thon takes place all day Friday, January 23rd through Sunday, January 25th. Let’s get those reviews done!

Bout of Books Read-a-Thon end and its time to write some reviews. Err... yes, I wrote and posted all the reviews from the books I read, but I still have quite a TBR (this case To-Be-Review) pile somewhere. I need to knock down the number 68, at least to a 60. So, this is my chance. It will be a weekend, which basically is very hard for me to read, but not to review. Hurray!

What I plan to review:

• Scarlet (Lunar Chronicles #2), by Marissa Meyer
• Cress (Lunar Chronicles #3), by Marissa Meyer
• Looking for Alaska, by John Green
• Aristotle & Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, by Benjamin Alire Saénz
• Rapture (The Elfin #2), by Quinn Loftis
• Searching for Perfect (Searching For #2), by Jennifer Probst
• Infinite (Newsoul #3), by Jodi Meadows
• Dear Girls Above Me, by Charles McDowell

I have basically three days to do all these, so I really hope to knock down that number. Are you going to enter to this challenge? I dare you! :)

Bout of Books 12 [Day 7 & Wrap Up Post]

The Bout of Books Read-A-Thon is ending and I think I'm did a great job. I participated in some challenges [Day 1 - Day 2 - Day 3 - Day 4 - Day 5 - Day 6] and here will be posted the ones for today.

Currently Reading:

• Kiss Kill Vanish, by Jessica Martinez [page 35]

Read:

• The 5th Wave, by Rick Yancey [457 pages - review]
• Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison [237 pages - review]
• Zodiac, by Romina Russell [336 pages - review]
• On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God, by Louise Rennison [243 pages - review]

Overall:

• 1308 pages read.
• 4 books totally finished and reviewed.

At the end, this was fun and I read quite a lot, not so much on Day 6 and 7 because its hard to me reading on weekends with my job [and social life]. I hope that y'all read a lot and hopefully will be entering for the next Bout of Books in May. Last challenges are:

#InSixWords Challenge!

by: Falling Down the Book Hole

The point of this challenge is to choose 2-3 books whether you read them this week, they are a few of your favorites or they were just the easiest ones to come up with something for. For these books you choose to use for this challenge, you must summarize/share your thoughts or feelings about the book in just six words!

Angus, Thongs & Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison

"Where everything is weird, but funny."

Zodiac, by Romina Russell

"No one believe her, so pay the consequences."

Red Queen, by Victoria Aveyard

"She's totally normal, except she's not."

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children, by Ransom Riggs

"Everything just keeps becoming more weird."

Just One Day, by Gayle Forman

"All this happened in just one day?"

Mockingjay, by Suzanne Collins

"Almost everyone died or disappeared."

Dysfunctional Family Challenge!

by: Auggie Talk

Select your characters and give each of them a title (mom, dad, sister, uncle, cousin). Get goofy or be super serious. Up to you! Tell me a little bit about WHY you'd choose these characters for their spot in your fam! Now have a bit of fun and tell me (in a short sentence or a long paragraph) HOW is your family dysfunctional. ;)

Dad - Hades [Percy Jackson & the Olympians/The Heroes of Olympus, by Rick Riordan]

Mom - Queen Amber [The Selection, by Kiera Cass]

Sister - Cath [Fangirl, by Rainbow Rowell]

Brother - Kenji [Shatter Me, by Tahareh Mafi]

Aunt - Queen Levana [Lunar Chronicles, by Marissa Meyer]

Cousin - Jace Herondale [The Mortal Instruments, by Cassandra Clare]

Boyfriend - Daemon Black [Lux, by Jennifer L. Armentrout]

So, this is my life... My dad lives in Hell, like literary. My mom loves being a queen and acts like it, even though she loves me, sometimes forget that I'm not like her. My siblings are super cool! My sister loves to write fanfics and read any book, which is a plus for me because I love to read, so I can borrow her books. My brother can be invisible and making pranks with him is hilarious, but sometimes it can be annoying when he pranks you. My aunt is super bitchy, doesn't like mirrors and wants to do everything she pleases, which is totally a down for me. My cousin is super cool, because helped me to defend myself, but he is always busy slaying monsters and demons. The biggest plus is my boyfriend, which is totally gorgeous, loving and is an alien. You see, my family is totally dysfunctional, but at end we love each other, right? At least, I think so.

I want to see your family & your six words sentences!

Bout of Books 12 [Day 6]

The Bout of Books Read-A-Thon is progressing and I think I'm doing a great job. I participate in the last challenges [Day 1 - Day 2 - Day 3 - Day 4 - Day 5] and here will be posted the one for today.

Currently Reading:

• Kiss Kill Vanish, by Jessica Martinez [page 35]

Read:

• The 5th Wave, by Rick Yancey [457 pages - review]
• Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison [237 pages - review]
• Zodiac, by Romina Russell [336 pages - review]
• On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God, by Louise Rennison [243 pages - review]

Overall:

• 1308 pages read.
• 4 books totally finished and reviewed.
• I DID NOT READ ANYTHING TODAY!

Not going to participate in any challenges, because its too late now.

StS [6]

Stacking the Shelves is a weekly meme hosted by Tynga’s Reviews, which is all about sharing the books you are adding to your shelves, may it be physical or virtual. You can read more about the creation of this meme by visiting the official launch page here.

 Holy...! I haven't done this in a very LONG LONG time, so I may try to catch on now. Basically this will be a summary of everything I read between my last post of StS and this post, plus the books I'm reading and some of the ones I will read this week.

July 27, 2014 to January 10, 2015

Read these past MONTHS (no particular order or there is?)

List of them below:

• The Duff, by Kody Keplinger
• Losing It, by Cora Carmack
• Seeking Her, by Cora Carmack
• Inking Him, by Cora Carmack (not pictured above)
• Faking It, by Cora Carmack
• Finding It, by Cora Carmack
• Fly On the Wall, by E. Lockhart
• Skinny, by Ibi Kaslik
• Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children, by Ransom Riggs
• Hollow City, by Ransom Riggs
• All Our Pretty Songs, by Sarah McCarry
• Me and Earl and the Dying Girl, by Jesse Andrews
• Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe, by Benjamin Alire Saénz
• Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac, by Gabrielle Zevin
• Resonable Doubt Volume 1, by Whitney Gracia Williams
• Resonable Doubt Volume 2, by Whitney Gracia Williams
• Resonable Doubt Volume 3, by Whitney Gracia Williams
• The Testing, by Joelle Charbonneau
• Independent Study, by Joelle Charbonneau
• Graduaction Day, by Joella Charbonneau
• Kick, by CD Reiss
• Use, by CD Reiss
• The Arrangement, by HM Ward
• Wolf of Stone, by Quinn Loftis
• Blood of Olympus, by Rick Riordan
• Follow, by JA Huss
• Like, by JA Huss
• Status, by JA Huss
• Block, by JA Huss
• Profile, by JA Huss
• Home, by JA Huss
• Shit My Dad Says, by Justin Halpern
• More Shit My Dad Says, by Justin Halpern
• Broken Course, by Aly Martinez
• Heavy Issues, by Elle Aycart
• That Man 1, by Nelle L'Amour
• That Man 2, by Nelle L'Amour
• That Man 3, by Nelle L'Amour
• That Man 4, by Nelle L'Amour
• That Man 5, by Nelle L'Amour
• Fifty First Times, by Various Authors
• One Hundred Steps, by Susan Ee (not pictured above)
• Afterburn, by Sylvia Day
• Aftershock, by Sylvia Day
• My True Love Gave to Me, by Various Authors
• Trashed, by Jasinda Wilder
• Be My Hero, by Linda Kage
• Wintertown, by Stephen Emond
• In the Afterlight, by Alexandra Braken
• Opposition, by Jennifer L. Armentrout
• Shadows, by Jennifer L. Armentrout
• Dash & Lily's Book of Dares, by David Levithan & Rachel Cohn
• Dec the Holls, by Jasinda Wilder (is NOT here, because the book before is repeated, oops)
• Ella & Micha; Infinitely & Always, by Jessica Sorensen
• Red Queen, by Victoria Aveyard
• Officer Next Door, by Ranae Rose
• Officer Out of Uniform, by Ranae Rose
• Officer in Pursuit, by Ranae Rose
• Love and Other Foreign Words, by Eric McCahan
• Winterspell, by Claire Legrand
• Damn You, Autocorrect, by Jillian Madison
• The Fifth Wave, by Rick Yancey
• Zodiac, by Romina Russell
• Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison
• On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God, by Louise Rennison

Currently Reading:

• Kiss Kill Vanish, by Jessica Martinez (pictured above)

To Be Read This Week (or hope to!):

• Knocked Out by My Nunga-Nungas, by Louise Rennison (pictured above)
• Darkest Part of the Forest, by Holly Black (not pictured above)
• Defy, by Sara B. Larson (not pictured above)
• Not a Drop to Drink, by Mindy McGinnis (not pictured above)
• In a Handful of Dust, by Mindy McGinnis (not pictured above)

That's it, folks! I promise not to let pass too much time between these posts. Link me yours?

[R] On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God, by Louise Rennison

On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God
(Confessions of Georgia Nicolson #2)
by: Louise Rennison

4 of 5 stars

What is the matter with my life? Why is it so deeply unfab?

It's a day and a half now since I snogged the Sex God…
I think I have snog withdrawal. My lips keep puckering up…
I tried snogging the back of my hand, but it's no good…
It's been over a week. I wonder if it's my nose…
I have a HUGE nose that means I have to live for ever in the Ugly Home.

Bout of Books 12 [Day 5]

The Bout of Books Read-A-Thon is progressing and I think I'm doing a great job. I participate in the last challenges [Day 1 - Day 2 - Day 3 - Day 4] and here will be posted the one for today.

Currently Reading:

• Kiss Kill Vanish, by Jessica Martinez [page 35]

Read:

• The 5th Wave, by Rick Yancey [457 pages - review]
• Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison [237 pages - review]
• Zodiac, by Romina Russell [336 pages - review]
• On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God, by Louise Rennison [243 pages - review]

Overall:

• 1273 + 35 pages read.
• 4 books totally finished and reviewed.

Describe your Book in Pictures!

by: the books monsters

Think about a book you finished or are currently reading. Create a series of images that describe what is going on in the book and post them somewhere, tumblr, your blog, twitter, instagram, etc. Use #boutofbooks so everyone can see!

Zodiac

by: Romina Russell

Let me explain a little what all this is, shall I? For those you haven't read Zodiac, you should read my review non-spoilery that I linked above and for those who have read it or know things about the book, well, its kind self-explanatory.

In my collage I put some pictures of stars, the galaxy and plantes, because duh the book is in outer space, which you will find a lot of those things. The pictures with all the zodiac symbols is also easy, because the book spins around all the zodiac houses, so these are the symbols. The necklace is from the main character (Rho), which is a Cancer, and at some point of the story he has a similar necklace. Also the drums represent her because before hell broke loose she was a drummer. The picture in between (which I know is a Guardians of the Galaxy character) represents the bad guy in this story, just because I imagine him like that. Also the snake double headed represents him, you will know if you read the book. And last is the picture of the astronaut, because if you are in space as a human, you must need air which there isn't, so put your astronaut suit on, people.

That's it! I want to see pictures, link link link yours.

[R] Zodiac, by Romina Russell

Zodiac
(Zodiac #1)
by Romina Russell

5 of 5 stars

At the dawn of time, there were 13 Houses in the Zodiac Galaxy. Now only 12 remain….

Rhoma Grace is a 16-year-old student from House Cancer with an unusual way of reading the stars. While her classmates use measurements to make accurate astrological predictions, Rho can’t solve for ‘x’ to save her life—so instead, she looks up at the night sky and makes up stories.

When a violent blast strikes the moons of Cancer, sending its ocean planet off-kilter and killing thousands of citizens—including its beloved Guardian—Rho is more surprised than anyone when she is named the House’s new leader. But, a true Cancerian who loves her home fiercely and will protect her people no matter what, Rho accepts.

Then, when more Houses fall victim to freak weather catastrophes, Rho starts seeing a pattern in the stars. She suspects Ophiuchus—the exiled 13th Guardian of Zodiac legend—has returned to exact his revenge across the Galaxy. Now Rho—along with Hysan Dax, a young envoy from House Libra, and Mathias, her guide and a member of her Royal Guard—must travel through the Zodiac to warn the other Guardians.

But who will believe anything this young novice says? Whom can Rho trust in a universe defined by differences? And how can she convince twelve worlds to unite as one Zodiac?

Embark on a dazzling journey with ZODIAC, the first novel in an epic sci-fi-meets-high-fantasy series set in a galaxy inspired by the astrological signs.

Bout of Books [Day 4]

The Bout of Books Read-A-Thon is progressing and I think I'm doing a great job for now. I participate in the last challenges [Day 1 - Day 2 - Day 3] and here will be posted the one for today.

Currently Reading:

• Zodiac, by Romina Russell [page 192]
• On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God, by Louise Rennison [page 67]

Read:

• The 5th Wave, by Rick Yancey [457 pages - review]
• Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison [237 pages - review]

Overall

• 953 pages read.
• 2 books totally finished and reviewed.

Sypnosis Challenge!

by: Lulo Fangirl

Create your own synopsis. In 3-5 sentences.
For any of the books you have read or plan to read during the read-a-thon!
You can be as creative as you’d like!

The 5th Wave
by: Rick Yancey

The Others came and we were toast.

Orphan, without much to survive, I need to keep going. Because I made a promise that I must fulfill, even if I have to kill for it or die.

I shall go on even if the world already ended.

I know its not that original, but I did what I could. I began and finished this book within the read-a-thon days, so it applies. I recommend the book too, very good. I want to read your sypnosis!

[R] Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison

Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging
(Confessions of Georgia Nicolson #1)
by: Louise Rennison

4.5 of 5 stars

There are six things very wrong with my life:

1. I have one of those under-the-skin spots that will never come to a head but lurk in a red way for the next two years.
2. It is on my nose
3. I have a three-year-old sister who may have peed somewhere in my room.
4. In fourteen days the summer hols will be over and then it will be back to Stalag 14 and Oberfuhrer Frau Simpson and her bunch of sadistic teachers.
5. I am very ugly and need to go into an ugly home.
6. I went to a party dressed as a stuffed olive.

Bout of Books [Day 3]

The Bout of Books Read-A-Thon is progressing and I think I'm doing a great job for now. I participate in the last challenges [Day 1 - Day 2] and here will be posted the one for today.

Currently Reading:

• Zodiac, by Romina Russell

Read:

• The 5th Wave, by Rick Yancey [457 pages - review]
• Angus, Thongs and Full-Frontal Snogging, by Louise Rennison [237 pages - review]

Overall:

• A total of 694 pages read.
• Only 2 book totally finished and reviewed.

Challenge Coupling Challenge

by: Writting My Own Fairytale

You must take two characters from two different books and put them together in a relationship. Make sure you list the book and author that the characters comes from. You must explain why you put them together. The relationship is up to you (friendship, romantic, parental, etc.).

The Selection, by Kiera Cass

Red Queen, by Victoria Aveyard

Prince Maxon Schreave

+

Mare Barrow

That's my pair. Their series really look alike, but them are characters are more like the same. They fight for a change. They want the change, for everyone to be equal in everyones eyes. I love how Maxon thought and how well he play his father's game. But I love how Mare were all hands in fighting and using her own methods to free herself and the people she loves and admire.

I recommend both books to be read! Who did you pair up?

Waiting on Wednesday [1]

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating. 

ITS MY FIRST POST! I have never done this meme, but always like to, so hopefully this year I will do more than a couple of them. I will try to post the most nearby book to be release that I'm (not) so patiently waiting for and if I don't post anything a week, well, there wasn't anything cool for me that week. But there may be a case that I post more than one book, I never know. This week's pre-publication "can't-wait-to-read" selection is:

NEVER NEVER

by: Colleen Hoover & Tarryn Fisher

Best friends since they could walk.

In love since the age of fourteen.

Complete strangers since this morning.

He'll do anything to remember.

She'll do anything to forget.

I'm (not) so patiently waiting for this book to come out from the moment they announced this beaty. I have never read a book of these authors, but some books of them are being in my TBR list for a while and what would be better that pop that cherry by reading a book by both of them? I'm sure I'm going to love it and that blur can make anoyone pick some kind of interest. Which book are you waiting on?

[R] The 5th Wave, by Rick Yancey

The 5th Wave
(The Fifth Wave #1)
by: Rick Yancey

5 of 5 stars

After the 1st wave, only darkness remains. After the 2nd, only the lucky escape. And after the 3rd, only the unlucky survive. After the 4th wave, only one rule applies: trust no one.

Now, it’s the dawn of the 5th wave, and on a lonely stretch of highway, Cassie runs from Them. The beings who only look human, who roam the countryside killing anyone they see. Who have scattered Earth’s last survivors. To stay alone is to stay alive, Cassie believes, until she meets Evan Walker.

Beguiling and mysterious, Evan Walker may be Cassie’s only hope for rescuing her brother—or even saving herself. But Cassie must choose: between trust and despair, between defiance and surrender, between life and death. To give up or to get up.